Friday, November 9, 2012

When i was younger, I was so naive. I used to think that the challenges I faced was extremely hard and trying. I used to think that decisions were very hard to make. I so wished there was a 'manual of life' that I could refer to to help me make decisions. i

For example, during the days of ignorance, whenever I had a fight with my second half, I would cry and ask myself why, why, why. I would lament and regret my choices and decisions. "Where is that manual of life?" I would scream inside.

Over the years, I have grown to realise that I dont have to act that way. There is such thing as a manual for life. It's the Quran and Rasulullah's sunnah. Why, I was so naive, and ignorant to say the least.

Many forget that we were created by Allah with fitrah. By design (fitrah), we have nafs (desires). And also by fitrah, we are never satisfied. We always want more than what we have/destined to have. And many do not realise that this weird concoction was formulated by Allah as a test to us. To see how grateful and how patient we are in dealing with things that go against our desires. It might seem unfair, some might question Allah's fairness to His creatures. Why, on the contrary! Allah is truly Al-Adl, ArRahman and ArRaheem. He sent down Al Quran and Rasulullah to guide and steer us back onto the straight path that will lead us back to Him.

I found the manual of life I longed for in my younger years. I can find everything in this manual of life.

But once in a while, challenges would show his nasty face and test my iman, Recent spite with the closest person in my life threw me off guard again. I was so saddened and dissapointed with certains things the person does or thinks. It was quite unpleasant, the confrontation. I am sure the person was dissapointed with my behaviours as I was with his. It left me feeling tired and alone, like no one to turn to and to console me.

But then, I remembered Rasulullah, and I remembered Quran. Patient when sad, grateful when happy. Respect people's differences. Respect your other half. Sadness is a way to cleanse our sins. Sadness or hardship is a kafarah etc etc. I feel better. I really do.

As if Allah intended to show me a lesson, an officemate shared with me her sad situation with her other half. She always appears to me to be happy with her other half. She told me she's jealous of my other half, because we appear to be so happy in her eyes! It struck to me that
1) nobody has a perfect life
2) people are never satisfied
3) we should be grateful with have Allah gives us. What seems good to us might be bad for us. And what seems bad might be good for us.

My conclusion is a reiteration of what Allah and His Rasulullah have been telling us in the manual of life - life is a series of tests to see how grateful we are in the face of happiness, and how patient we are in the face of sadness and hardship. Subhanallah.

Oh Allah, please provide me strength to keep on reminding myself again and again that this is just a small test from you to see how grateful I am to be given the gift of Iman. Allahuakbar.









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2 comments:

  1. Beautiful Sep!

    1) nobody has a perfect life
    2) people are never satisfied
    3) we should be grateful with have Allah gives us. What seems good to us might be bad for us. And what seems bad might be good for us.

    Damnitistrue.

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    1. ayu hanisa, so true. yet we always forget :) let's remind each other. that's what sahabat soleh do!

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